Sunday 6/9/09

I learned that my good friend joe died in naas hospital two months ago. Last time I called in to see him in the nursing home and was told that he had to go into hospital because of a chest infection, I remember hoping he would not come out. For what? To endure years more of an existence involving medical trips, punctuated only by the very occasional social outing or visit.

Thankfully I had started to vist more often during the year, rather than just leaving it at the usual easter and Christmas times.The horrible smell of disinfectant, and the same old people existing on in their own world's made it always an effort for me to go in. Although I could always be gauranteed that when I went in , he would be in the same position in bed,with his big bloated sausage like fingers clutched around his beaker.

So all in all, I certainly don’t feel like sheding a tear. The only thing I do regret is not having any video or audio of him. He exists now only in my memory. A couple of times I did think of sneaking in a video camera, but I realise that this would have been very unfair to capture him in his physical worst, minus teeth.

Just back from having my seafood in Avon Ri in Blessington Holiday Village. The weather is atrocious and I have holidays coming up, but nowhere to go . But that I am glad that I have nowhere lined up, it just is very hard and expensive to arrange a holiday when you need assistance . So I am looking forward just having some lazy lie-ins and catch up on some reading.

One of the good books that I am reading at the moment is called " THE MASK OF CHRIST " which really shows how the bible really is a work of fiction , and not even good fiction at that . It does not stand up to literary investigations, given that the authors of the selected gospels repeatedly contradict each other . For me it just goes to show how deep the level of brainwashing and programming went. It seems that it never crossed people's mind's, to question the validity of the bible a few decades ago.

We all fell for it hook, line and sinker. I feel personally at this stage that you cant just sit on the fence with regard to these issues. I know a lot of people who never set foot in church until they plan on getting married, and for me, this is not only hypocritical, but wrong on so many levels. It would personally be galling to me, to just quietly go along with all this charade. Do we really believe the creator of every plant and species and star in in the universe in coming back and forth repeatedly in the guise of a piece of bread???? Does he not get dizzy ? Would’nt it be much better all round, if people put more effort and focus into this life, rather than feathering their nest in a supposed afterlife?

At the moment I’m in a facility in newbridge, and there are more people worthy of admiration here, than any moron that a lot of people still (thankfully a lot of people are waking up) are more than willing to contort themselves before. Saw the craziest sight today in a service station in roscrea. A garda getting a guy to take off his trainners while he (the garda) was having a fag. So much for on duty professionalism! Never seen a garda with a stocking clad suspect, with his hands cupped behind his head, in a haze of cigarette smoke!