Powerful Love

My Mother-One of a kind

My mother is of the last generation to lay their entire lives down on the altar of motherhood. Its strange, because while most women can expect their kids eventually to leave the nest and establish their own lives, her kids are actually regressing in so many ways .

Its almost like a reverse empty nest syndrome, because due to Friedreich's, myself and my youngest brother are getting more and more dependent.
(Update 3/8/13: Joe is the baby pictured her,e and he will be six years dead this coming November)

She is a full time carer, and we are very lucky to have her. Her own mother lived to be 94, so hopefully she will be around for quite some time.I can't imagine life without her, so anyone reading this, please send her good vibes for a long and healthy life.

My mother to me is the calm voice of reason, when I am on the ground struggling to get up. She's there, and always has been, to help. Unfortunately I'm the sort of person to vent on whoever is nearest at hand, and regrettably she is often a verbal punching bag for me. I am really trying to change this, to learn how to channel my energy in a more positive way.I remember an old nun, decades ago, saying that as humans, we always tend to misdirect our emotions at our nearest and dearest. Annoyingly true!

If I pay one of my frequent visits to the ground, cursing everything and everyone around me, is not going to help in the slightest. Its better to save that energy, and think rationally and clearly about how to get back up. So easy to say, so hard to do!!

She is as I call her "The Governor". Increasingly I look at the family home here in terms of a prison, but I suppose as prisons go it aint too bad.

In a very real sense, all three of our lives have been restricted, and disabled by friedreich's. She has sacrificed so much to be there for us all the time. Having said that if I won the euromillions jackpot in the morning, I would be GONE on a non stop holiday, as I feel we have spent enough time together already.

Really, my heart goes out to those in any sort of similar situation, who don't have the benefit of a good mother.If there is a heaven (and I hope there is for her sake) she absolutely deserves to be at the head of that dreamy queue!

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